Five Funerals
By Nathaniel Bellows
One with five caskets heaved from the hearse
rolling past me in the pew.
Five new blazers bought, one sewn with a secret
pocket for my coins –hidden from the passed
basket of bills. Different light, all the same stories
in the windows. One church, one stench, one sermon,
five: shake your neighbor’s hand. One hole, five
stones, one name carved in script.
Five wakes stocked with flowers arranged in rings,
one open casket, five grave family faces, one
book to be signed; five signatures, improving. Five
guilty rides on the limousine’s blue plush seats. One
magnetic flag stuck to the hood leading us through redlights
of five different towns. Five of us in the back,
one of us waving. I was waving to people watching
on the street, drivers waving us through.
One funeral. I had not yet turned eleven.
One one the cake would say that summer.
Five caskets, one organ droning, five
hundred hymns in the book, opened to one that made
everybody cry. No one could sing or say the words.
The priest offered us the wafer –I was afraid
of its taste. Five robed boys carried candles behind
the caskets. We followed the hearse. Five rectangular holes
surrounded by plastic grass. We will all be one, says the priest,
with our maker. They could not make me
take the wafer. All before I was eleven. Still
ten –five years past
five years old when the funeral began. One day I put on
a suit, the church was cold, I sang with the organ. Then began
the caskets. One just like the next.
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I love this poem to pieces. Nathaniel Bellows isn't too bad-lookin', either. However I am having a TON of trouble writing my essay for this. Usually I don't have any trouble cooking up a crock of pseudo-poetic-essay bullshit for classes, but this poem has just completely thrown me. D: Back to work!